So many things had changed in my life since the arrival of my smiley little one.
Initially i struggle with breastfeeding, feel abit guilty at times when i din perservere in breastfeeding him since he got thrust in his month few days after birth. Pumping and throwing away the breast milk make me feel sianz, thus i gave up without even trying hard to build up the milk amt. Comforting myself with the tot of me not being a breastfed baby either and am healthy and strong as of today. haha..
Initially i struggle with breastfeeding, feel abit guilty at times when i din perservere in breastfeeding him since he got thrust in his month few days after birth. Pumping and throwing away the breast milk make me feel sianz, thus i gave up without even trying hard to build up the milk amt. Comforting myself with the tot of me not being a breastfed baby either and am healthy and strong as of today. haha..
Doing shopping these days no longer centered ard my things, what dress i want, which shoe is nice, which skincare i should invest in...no..is emre's stuff come first...now i get to noe abt baby shops like mothercare, kiddy palace, baby hypermart/cheong choon store, major shopping centres infant/baby department...all these were non existence to me before emre's arrival.
Initially it was quite tough being a new mother, having to take care of my son by myself. Almost fell into post natal blues, but am glad to receive support of my most loveable mother, hubby and some frds... Christine in particular. When she heard my breast were hard as rock, she came over without hesitation with her hubby and little son and her growing bump to borrow me her breast pump..yes i din even get a breast pump in advance, haha.. tat nite i went through a painful ordeal and learnt an unforgetable lesson on what is breast engorgement. :(
Few mths after, is very rewarding to see the development and growth of emre, all the birth pains, everyday tasks of bottle washing, bathing/changing diapers are sweeten by this little one's mighty big smile and chuckle. This is pure bliss, i tot to myself.
Emre is a very good boy to me, cos i do not have to wake up for nite feeds as earlier as 2-3mths from his birth date. On wkends in his tender early days, when we do go out, he will knock out the whole nite without waking for milk.lolz...think he is like me , prefer sleep over food, little piggy like his piggy mom. ha!
Sometimes i wish he can talk and walk now, then again at times i will want him to remain as he is now, dun want him to grow up too fast too soon.. tok abt being fickle minded.
For my frds who noe abt my tots of having kids after marriage, Yes, this is someone who do not wish to have kids in the beginning talking and sharing abt the blissfulness of motherhood. haha..wat an irony, huh?!
These days, when my frds (esp my best frd, u noe who u are) ard me announced they are preggie, i feel great joy for them cos i know they will be able to share the same kind of happiness and contentment which am experiencing now.
Welcome to motherhood!What lies ahead is a long long learning curve, get ready for the next roller coaster ride of our life! (*__*)
Smile that melts my heart every time..
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